What am I seeking?

I contemplated this much over the weekend. What I am allowing to zap all my time and energy? Am I fulfilled in the seeking or finding more frustration and longing? When my search consumes me, I am not the person I want to be....I wait for someone else to complete and inspire me. I need to break this habit and seek truth and find myself. I need to stop allowing myself to fall into the pit and walk the edge of clear thinking and understand just what it is I need to complete me. Is it the love of just one or do I need to find my inner strength from a higher power? Will I ever have joy, if I look for it within a human form. Am I stretching the reality of what someone else can give me and seeking for them to provide my happiness? I know where my true power and joy are housed. For too long, I have turned a blind eye to that fact, and walk without Christ accompanying me; out of my own choice. He has promised that He is still there, just waiting to be invited back along my journey. I invite you Christ, to again share my path and lead me on...